Currently Listening Dark Passion Play By Nightwish Amaranth see related

Today I've decided that I need to make a special list for myself - a list that tells the things I have in my life, and the things that I don't.

So, the things that I have or are able to do:
- non-broken family
- sufficient money (at least my parents do)
- proper education
- pretty good friends
- a complete set of limbs
- I can see (but I need help from contacts), I can hear (but I suspect my hearing is deteriorating), I can smell, and I can speak
- I find enjoyment in reading and sometimes writing
- goals
- food and beverages everyday
- companionship
- being nice when I want to (?)

And the things that I don't have or can't do but want: (And, you know what, I'm being completely honest here. Trust me.)
- a boyfriend (so shallow, right?)
- the ability to have better sport skills
- faster reflexes
- social skills
- to take things more non-personally
- staying calm; not so easily angered
- sarcasm
- perfect eyesight
- height (yes, physically)
- in general, a better face
- to stop caring so much about what others say
- being emotionally strong
- to know what to say and how to act at the right time
- leadership; not following the crowd like a sightless sheep
- good memory
- less laziness or slacking
- determination
- less greediness and less selfishness
- acceptance (sorta)
- happiness (sorta)
- daredevilness
- money
- CDs, CD player with awesome stereo, proper earphones
- a faster, better laptop
- more brainpower
- the ability to turn back time or to go back in time (yes, those two are different)
- the ability to take back actions that I've done
- knowing the truth about everything (and by saying that, I mean EVERYTHING)
- love
- play guitar and/or drums like a pro, in other words, to be as good as a person in a famous band such as Linkin Park, Green Day, etc :) but i know i'll take a long, long time to get there :D
- sing (sorta)
- bravery
- studying school work and, for now, piano shit, EVERYDAY
- a person who likes me for who I am
- go and live in LA! <3
- to meet a certain person again ( . . . where we have to engaged in a situation where we somehow have to get to know each other, like, you know, when we're grown up and we happen to work in the same company or something . . . :D)
- to know what I want
- to say "no" when I have to. and to voice my opinion more around people that I don't agree with.
- parents that allow more freedom and give me more pocket money XD
- fuckin freedom from my disgusting helper - I just really hate the way she acts. she has serious problems with her brain. if she ever has a kid, I have literally got no idea how he/she'll survive the 18 years he/she has to be stuck with her. really.
- basically to be able to do whatever I want, for the most part
- to travel to anywhere I want!
- a LOT of self-confidence
- patience
- to be able to stay un-irritable for a longer period of time
- to be less depressed/sick of myself
- to think before I act
- anything that I write about will come true
- the ability to make certain people suffer
- the ability to know if a person is telling the truth and if they are telling a lie and how often they're lying . . .

And my list can probably go even longer than that.

As you can see, the number of my "wants" are way more than my "haves." Sad. I hope that doesn't mean I'm a greedy person; I'm just not really satisfied with my life I guess.